NOT WHAT I'D HOPED FOR
(Song For Tia)

There are sluts in my kitchen, eating our chips
Momma's red-eyed and saying that I've got to put up with them
And they're doing doughnuts in the front yard in his cars
And I don't want to be here

And all of our ladies in waiting are ready for us to cry,
and you know, it's not what I'd hoped for
But then again it rarely is

And all of the ex's are calling, wondering if they broke me too soon
And I say, "Hey, it's okay."
Now I can honestly say that I've been through worse
They sit around me in a semicircle, but don't worry my friends
You won't have to heal me today... 'Cause I've pushed it all away

And all of our ladies in waiting
Are ready for us to cry, and
You know, it's not what I'd hoped for
But then again, none of this is

They say that God's with me, but She doesn't know me
So you can keep your blessings
My birthday cake is still on the table
My candles aren't cold yet.. Yet, and you are
Yet you are

No more tears, my dear
No more tears, my dear
No more tears my dear, my dear
Be strong for your brother and your sister
Take care of your mother
You have to be the strong one now; don't cry
'Cause they can't see you cry now

And all of our ladies in waiting
Say it's time for them to go
And I tell them, "Hey, it's okay."
I'd rather be alone to talk to your ghost

©Copyright 2004 Erin Beck.